I know. I know. It's been two weeks since ShowMeCon. I've been busy! Within hours the neighbors wanted to hang out (I brought the St. Louis beer). The next day, I had a big case of the don't give a shits. I didn't get a podcast ready for that night's release.

I went to work Monday expecting to head home and work on some stuff (like get a podcast out). Instead I was informed the development team I work with was heading to Nashville Sounds game, because some people were in from out of town and I was invited. I went. Tuesday, I played soccer for two and half hours, because I like pain (I didn't regain full functionality of my legs until Saturday). Wednesday was a social night, because those same people were in town (yay!). I got home and got the podcast out, three days late. Thursday, I wrote about suicide. Friday, I wrote about password policy. Both very serious topics.

Things sort of got normal after that. I took the weekend to kind of dink around on stuff I wanted to do. Monday I got two of the four podcasts edited I needed to. I was invited over the neighbors Tuesday for beer and baseball. Finally, last night I got four podcasts scheduled. I'm heading to Asheville tomorrow for BSides Asheville (still looking for a ticket). Much beer (and maybe a podcast) will be involved. Tonight is the night for me to write something and hopefully get a little Overwatch in. Damn I've been busy. Didn't really realize that until writing it down.

Back to ShowMeCon. This was my third year and fantastic as always. It's the ideal security conference. The hackers think it's too businessy. The business people think it's two hackery. There are more women at this conference than any other security conference, I've been to combined. I love it!

I did my first ever podcast panel, which went really well for being the first time. They had a personal trainer there to talk about health and fitness. There were a lot of questions at the end. This might be something I need to write about. I do work at a wellness company after all!

During the conference I managed to get two interviews for the podcast recorded. I really like the idea of recording interviews at conferences. It's a much better vibe when the two people are in person. It flows better. There's the low rumble of the crowd. The low thud of doors smacking closed. It's fantastic. Those will be releasing over the next two weeks.

Now that ShowMeCon is over, I've been re-evaluating my desire and need for submitting to conferences. I've been speaking since 2015. It's a great challenge and a good career booster. Now that I'm at a company that I adore and in a role that continues to expand, I'm starting to wonder the value I'm getting out of submitting to conferences. I love sharing ideas and challenging myself to become a better speaker. The downside to speaking is that it takes time away from my family.

I have two kids still in the single digits. I'd like to spend more time with them. At one point I was slated to be at 12 conferences this year. With other obligations, conflicts, and one conference not happening this year, I'm down to eight. That's still quite a bit. I've presented at all five I've gone to this year. It's not just going to the conference that takes time. It's also the preparation leading up to the conference. I spend several hours putting the talk together. Then I spend the week leading up to the conference practicing the talk. This is on top of the weekly podcast I produce.

I spend a lot of time in the field. Because of my expanding role I'm spending more time at work now too. I'm trying to find that balance. I'd like to spend more time with my kids. I think that will be at the cost of the conferences I attend. If I do submit a talk, it'll be for a podcast panel. The preparation for that is much easier than a full blown talk. I'd like to say I'm cutting back on conferences, but I don't think it'll take much for me to go to a conference (someone asks). We'll see.

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